The Everpresent Unknown/the Void

The Unknown, the Void, is ever present.  I listen.  All is quiet as this new day dawns.  What this day brings, I do not know.

I do know that Spring is coming, for the little fig tree I bring in every winter is sprouting new leaves, despite having very little light.  The bright pink of new sprouts under the dead leaves in my flowerbed tell me that soon new peonies will shoot up.

Yesterday I heard the sounds of fighting feral cats as I dug in my garden, reminding me that more litters of kittens will come forth, adding to the already too large a population.  Digging out the deep-rooted grasses in the small garden, I watched for earthworms, carefully knocking them back out of the large clumps of root-bound soil onto the freshly turned earth.  If I damage any of them, they will come back, not die.  They will continue adding to the life of the soil, and thus, to the well being of anything growing here.  Despite my awareness that death is always a potentiality, life, energy, and light surge within and around me.

Last night I perused the posts of friends on Face Book.  I came across a link that took me to several videos concerning the reopening of the large hadron collider, built by CERN, near Geneva, Switzerland.  First, however, here is some information about CERN:

“The instruments used at CERN are purpose-built particle accelerators and          detectors.   Accelerators boost beams of particles to high energies before the beams are made to collide with each other or with stationary targets.  Detectors observe and record the results of these collisions.”

“The name CERN

The name CERN is derived from the acronym for the French “Conseil Européen pour la Recherche Nucléaire”, or European Council for Nuclear Research, a provisional body founded in 1952 with the mandate of establishing a world-class fundamental physics research organization in Europe.  At that time, pure physics research concentrated on understanding the inside of the atom, hence the word “nuclear”.

Today, our understanding of matter goes much deeper than the nucleus, and CERN’s main area of research is particle physics – the study of the fundamental constituents of matter and the forces acting between them.  Because of this, the laboratory operated by CERN is often referred to as the European Laboratory for Particle Physics.

The big bang should have created equal amounts of matter and antimatter.  So why is there far more matter than antimatter in the universe?

The Higgs boson

Elementary particles may have gained their mass from an elusive particle – the Higgs boson.

The Large Hadron Collider

The 27-kilometre LHC is the world’s largest particle accelerator. It collides protons or lead ions at energies approaching the speed of light.

The birth of the web

The World Wide Web, invented at CERN in 1989 by British scientist Tim Berners-Lee, has grown to revolutionize communications worldwide.”
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Switzerland is the link where you can watch the videos in the post put up by
Cyrus Khoroushi in Sci/Environment. reports:

“Dr. Stephen Hawking recently warned that the reactivation in March of CERN’s  large  hadron collider could pose grave dangers to our planet…the ultimate reality check we are warned.  Hawking has come straight out and said the ‘God particle’ found by CERN “could destroy the universe” leaving time and space collapsed as shared in the 2nd video.  Is CERN the most dangerous thing in the cosmos that could lead to the ultimate destruction of the Earth and the entire universe?  Recent developments prove to us the scientific community is no longer able to explain ‘reality’ without looking at the ‘supernatural’.  Will we soon learn CERN is really the ‘ultimate stargate’ and one of the gate-keepers most closely guarded secrets?  Will this be the way man attempts to break the ultimate ‘God barrier’, an attempt to encounter demi-God’s in an all-out rush towards the destruction of all creation?  We understand they won’t be releasing the secrets until they’re prepared to release them.”

– See more at: file:///C:/Users/test/Downloads/Cern.htm#sthash.cbh4WUbr.dpuf

Gulp.  After reading the above, as well as watching the videos posted, I thought about all the recent turmoil I have experienced regarding my personal relationships (or those I once believed were ‘personal’ relationships).  The breakdown in communication with those few ‘friends’ seems almost meaningless now, with the realization that ALL might collapse, come March 6, 2015.  My self-created hell-world is also meaningless.  If ALL is due to collapse, end, why be concerned any longer about anything?  Why torment myself with how betrayed I have felt by certain relationships over the last fifty years?  It all seems so small, so insignificant.  All the egos, mine included, seem stupid and destructive.  I may have less than a month to interact with all the people I have ever known and loved.  The above information gives me a different perspective on today.

The earth turns and the sun appears higher in the sky.  It is a beautiful day, warmer, and full of promise.  I may know the simple joys of greeting my faithful, loyal friends, my dogs and cats, digging in the soil and planting seeds, taking my weekly bath, and eating a small, simple meal.  Later, this evening, I may escape into an even more illusory reality by watching the next episode of “Downton Abbey” on television.

Meanwhile, I am aware of how much older I am, how my knees creak when I walk, how my musculature seems less strong, how easy it is to stumble, lose my balance, and fall to the ground.  I am also aware of how utterly naive I have been throughout this lifetime, at how I have taken so much for granted.  All those quotes people put up on Face Book saying how positive thoughts and love are all that count for anything strike me as also meaningless and almost trite.  I say that because everybody else is in the same boat as I.  They may intellectually read and hear the inspired words of another, but do they truly live them?  Are we really being truthful when we say to another, “I love you!”?  I use those words rarely, except when I know I can say them without any doubt.  Now, I am feeling empty, refreshed by this feeling of emptiness.

In this moment, not much of anything seems to matter.  All is Unknown, a Void.

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